after the fall
little alliances, secret and perverse
immaculate deceptions out of nowhere
and what’s worse
they don’t evaporate as quickly as they come
as you can see
hovering, making thick the air so you can’t breathe
like a reckless diver you want oceans to explore
but this fear of freedom’s got you sitting safe
upon the shore
you pray for clarity, conviction and content
to find you soon
no matter, it don’t matter maybe you won’t need them
on the moon
and you’re looking for a window
‘cause your heart ran out the door
gravity supplies the wherewithal
but you’ll ride that loop-the-loop and be back again for more
and where will you be after the fall
stockpiled illusions coalescing, gaining steam
and you waken monday morning with the semblance
of a dream
which knows itself to be a sham that wraps you
in a lover’s kiss
no matter, it don’t matter close your eyes
delusion is bliss
and you’re looking for a window
‘cause your heart ran out the door
immaturity has heard the clarion call
but you’ll ride that loop-the-loop and be back again for more
and where will you be after the fall
you say you want me to be free
I know another right near by who needs these words
as much as me
little alliances so secret no one knows
that you waken tuesday morning with the tender ache
that owes itself to fantasy, obsession
and stunning lack of pride
no matter, it don’t matter tell yourself
you can tell yourself you just tell yourself
that you never lied
and you’d give-up on the window
if he’d open up the door
vanity provides the protocol
fantasy is fine if you are fine with nothing more
and where will you be after the fall
©2005 nell balaban
all rights reserved
music lyrics vocals - me
producer guitars bass etc etc - tim thorney
keyboards - brent barkman
engineer - mike philips
re-mix - adam fair
mastering - noah mintz at lacquer channel